Life as we know it sucks

18 Is Not Just a Number . . .

Current Mood: satisfied

Current Music: none...I can't hear anyway (my ears are full of cotton balls)

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!

Ok. Got that out of my system. I can't believe it's been a full 365 days. The other day I was reading my past diaries (written ones - not on the computer) from my birthday.

Let's see, 3 years ago - I was worried about Matt. I was worried about him asking me out.

2 years ago, I was obsessed with Jacob. I realized that I was never happy "with" him, but I could imagine a bunch of happy things to make myself seem happy (doesn't make sense to you? Probably not).

Just one year ago, I was with Shane. I was with him, the man that my heart aches so badly for. I miss him so much. I don't know why. I guess it's because of all this reading and watching "The Notebook." I just really miss. *sigh* I cannot wait to see him in a few hours. I'm so excited that I don't even know if I'm going to be able to sleep . . . . I love him and I can't wait to marry him one day. I know I said that about the other two, but Shane is different. He really is.




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