Life as we know it sucks

What's Wrong With Me?

Current Mood: sad

Current Music: Angel of Music - Phantom of the Opera Soundtrack

I think there's something wrong with me. I can't seem to get over anything. Or anyone for that matter. I can't just forgive and forget. I want others to forgive and forget, but I can't do the same. What's wrong with me? Why can't I seem to get him out of my mind. And don't pretend like you don't know who the hell I'm talking about. That boy! That boy that I ruined - or feel like I did. I just feel like he still hates me, because I don't even know if he does. I just think he does. I just think he will always hate me until I actually talk to him. But I don't have the guts to talk to him. I don't have the BALLS! I mean, what am I supposed to do? Wait a couple years and THEN see what's up with him? I don't think so. I want to talk to him now. He's online right now, so why not? I thought he would have signed off by now, but doesn't look like it. He's still on. Maybe it's a sign. But I don't know what to do. I don't know how to respond to this sign. *sigh* I don't know if I'm supposed to break this unspoken agreement that we would never speak again. I don't know anything. I don't know what's wrong with me. I just don't know.

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