Life as we know it sucks

Maybe Not

Current Mood: fine

Current Music: no music

So, I can't believe I'm saying this - but maybe there isn't any progress after all. *sigh* Perhaps the only achievement I've made is stopped talking to Christopher and finally telling Shane I love him again. But, I guess that is big progress, no?

I don't know anything anymore. Even with Rachel back for the holidays, I still don't feel completed. I feel I'm lacking in a department. And I think about Christopher. Maybe it's not good that we're not speaking. I would really love to be friends with him again - best friends. But I know that wouldn't happen without some sort of emotional attachment on the "love" level spurring. I'm so lost. I wish someone would help me.

Yours Truly

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Good fences make good neighbors.