Life as we know it sucks

I Do Wonder

Current Mood: aggravated

Current Music: none

I'm aggravated! Why can't I be upset or hurt? Is it just because I was the one who did the hurting? Or is it because I'm just not allowed to be hurting? I lost my friend - maybe not to death, but it certainly seems that way. I feel absolutely terrible about what I've done and I do punish myself. Why does he feel the need to punish me more to make me want to punish myself even worse?


Maybe I should just fucking slice my throat. Stupid? Huh, maybe. But perhaps I would make everyone a little happier. I wonder if he would even care? I wonder if anyone would? I wouldn't.

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"I love you" is only 8 letters . . . then again, so is "bullshit."


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"I love you" is only 8 letters . . . then again, so is "bullshit."