Life as we know it sucks

Prove Me Wrong

Current Mood: depressed...I've been like this a lot lately

Current Music: none

Who are you really?

I am a young adult female who is completely full of emotions. I am always full of emotions. I am emotionful.

I cry so much. Especially these days. I always get upset over something. I've been so stressed lately. I get so emotional over everything. *sigh*

Sometimes I do hate who I am. I am a terrible person. I'm so uncaring. So very uncaring. I seem to only care about myself . . . I know people don't think I care. It sucks. I hate myself so much sometimes.

I am so full of feelings. And I just hold them inside. I keep them bottled inside. *sigh* I wish I could tell someone. I feel like I have no one I can trust completely and the only person I can is so many 100s of miles away.

I miss Rachel. She was the ultimate best friend and I feel so lost without her. Christopher was an ok substitute, but he just doesn't compare to Rachel. She is a female and she was also very full of emotions. We, together, could make it through anything and without a best friend by my side, a 1/3 of me is missing. The other 2/3 is myself and Shane. I have my soulmate and myself - but I don't have my best friend who would complete me. *sigh*

I don't get it. Why am I so empty without her? Why can't someone fill her place? Why can't I get my life beack together? *sigh*

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"I love you" is only 8 letters . . . then again, so is "bullshit."