Life as we know it sucks

I Know Exactly What I'm doing . . . but I Can't Stop

Current Mood: sad

Current Music: Lindsay Lohan - Rumors

Christopher is a work in a progress and when I say that, I mean he is this very shy-about-his-feelings kinda guy and he just hates to talk about himself. He reminds me so much of Shane and that scares me.

What's even worse is that I know I'm leading him on, yet I can't stop. I just want to keep talking to him and feeding my need and urge for some sort of friendship - I don't know.

But I shouldn't be doing something this mean to benefit myself or satisfy myself.

I should be kind to him and let him know what I'm doing and give him space and if he doesn't think we could be friends after that, I'd have to respect that . . . even though it would kill me and lead me to very bad habits that would continually increase and cause other very bad things to happen.

I don't do well with stress. *sigh*

Yours Truly

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"I love you" is only 8 letters . . . then again, so is "bullshit."