Life as we know it sucks

What do I do now?

Current Mood: confused about my feelings

Current Music: Three Libras - A Perfect Circle

This is probably the worst thing my boyfriend fears right now.....That I'll break up with him for another guy. Granted I have thought about it, but who doesn't think about what it would be like with someone else? I do occasionally, but I don't let it run my life...but right now I have an extreme infatuation with this boy named Christopher. I just can't get him out of my mind and I want to talk to him 24/7 and he's so different and nice to me and so understandable and so....interesting. I can't help myself. I can't help my feelings. I mean, what am I supposed to do?! I think I'm starting to like this boy! It pains me because I do not want to break it off with Shane anytime in the future. I've been wanting to live with him and marry him for a long time. I've wanted a committed relationship with someone for a long time and now that I have it, I'm just going to let it go for one stupid "fling?" I don't get it.

Well, if anyone reads this and cares enough to respond...could you? Could you give me some advice? Thank you.

Yours Truly...Hilary
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To everyone out there who's a little different, I say damn a magazine, these are God's fingerprints.