The experiences of all my relationships. |
I don't get it. What is going on? Lately, I've been depress. David haven't been showing me love and affection. If I tell him how I feel, He would always tell me that I complain too much. Recently, we had a discussion about his ex. He told me what they used to do together, you know like going out, doing things together. Well, when he was with her, he worked 40 or more hours a week and she didn't work at all. David told me that they go out every week and have their moments in the bedroom all the time. He even went into details. When I think about it, he did more for her than me. He even called me boring in the bedroom. He told me what she used to do to him. Now, how am I supposed to feel. Right now, he works only 40 hours a week. We don't go out, we don't get intimate as much, but if we do, it's the same routine, we don't even spend time. He watches TV when he gets home from work, then goes to sleep till it's time to go to work. I'm not asking so much. I do so much for him than she ever did. I cook his meals, wash his clothes, and take care of him; regardless of how tired I am since I work too. I think he is still hooked on her. I feel like he is ashamed of me. I'm trying my hardest just to make him happy. In a way, I feel like it's a pattern for me. I've been through bad relationships so far. It really sucks big time. David told me in the beginning that he would never hurt me. At first, I was scared to come into this relationship because I got tired of getting hurt all the time. When David and I got together, it was wonderful. I never been more happy. But, things started to change. Why? Is he taking my love for granted? I asked him about that and you know what he told me, he said, "do i hit you? do i use you for money?" True that he does not, but if a person feels like crap, there's got to be something wrong. I don't think he's cheating on me. He told me he got issues. David moved here with me without solving his problems first. Now that his problems are creeping up on him, he can't take it. Everytime he's on the phone with somebody and that person pissed him off, when he gets off, he picks on me. I think that is unfair. I wish things were back to normal again. This morning, he told me he doesn't want to lose me and that he loves me very much more than life itself. I don't know, but it's confusing the hell out of me. I don't know what he wants. David recently asked my parents for their blessings. We are scheduled to get married within one year. I don't think we should get married until these problems are solved. Every couple has problems, but these little things just bring us to an argument all the time. I wish I know what to do. |