je swee un LOSER!!!!

entry #8-stuff

chris and i are still togther...this is a record for me. Also, i haven't kissed anyone that wasn't him in over a month, even though he adn i have only been in a closed relationship for about a week. At least officially. And i still like him immensly...i mean, it's not perfect, there have been some issues between us, but...it's working out.
Pam still obsesses abpotu everything..Her life wouldn't be so bad if she didn't worry so much. And if she stopped worrying so much, then her self esteem would go up, and then she wouldn't be such a whore, and then she'd have less to worry about. Right? Or am I the only one that thinks that?
I have pageant this week, which means that i'm never home for long adn i'm not getting enough sleep. As of yesterday i will have had at least one performance everyday through sunday. 3 on saterday, 2 sunday. Yesterday I had a chorus thing adn then dress rehearsal. Tonight's the charity show. Tomorrow is the first real performance. Friday is my chorus concert. How fun, right? like totally. And I'm all "yay!!God!!" at the rehearsals,because it's with a baptist church, but theni come home or i go to school, and i'm still me the witch, so that's stressful. Yes, i do remember the vision i had last year about not letting my "life with christ" get in the way of my real life adn my true calling, so i'm trying to keep balanced. I have not forsaken my truth.
wheee....happiness....lol..muah..bye