i hate reed academy!

My despair as a child

My despair as a child by horsegirl

I hear my mothers angry words saying she wishes I was never born saying what a disapointment I am. Saying swear words. My dad with his belt standing over me my bear skin in the belt slammimg into my tender skin. the being locked on the pourch and despretly screaming let me out oh dear god leyt me out!!! Trying to break the door down. My family eating dinner as if they dont care. I cant help nbut dispair it is like im not there. Im not allowed to show anger so I turn it into myself bitting kicking scracting myself in rage and anger that I can express no other way I attempt to starve myself I run till im exausted. I a young child hate myself! I a young child want despretly to die to have my pain end but how can a young child be rediculed for this? Yet she is in despaire she knows she is