My Life

slow night

well its been a slow night all and all. Didn't feel like going to B n N. Just don't feel right anymore. I am starting to get bored of it all. But who knows. Cars are starting to make it feel like my life is going by slower. Well tonight after everything felt so right in my life, when everything is going great. Daniel is going threw some of the more simialar problems with Lori. Which is like a combo of Trisha and Aubrey. Damn i know how he feels and i hope he is stronger then i was. I thought i could handle it, i hope he can. We wrestled and damn i will tell you this he is no bitch. hehe. weighs more then he looks, has upper body strenght, and is fast. Man it was cool, i think he fucked up my wrist and my shoulder. He wasn;t able to walk after i body slammed him. Feel kinda bad. Another cool thing of the night i got to drive His Z06 Vette. Very nice ride. to prove how much he dosn;t care about the car to his girl he threw a beer at the car. Put a dent right in it. Shocked me, he did something i would have done for aubrey. But dosn;t matter anymore. We talked till just recently and i left at about 8:00 till what 12:30... Man i tell you what i have gained more respect for him then i already have. The things he said we are so much alike i wish i knew him sooner. He is someone i would take a bullet for cause i know he would do the same for me if we where that close. Hard and hell to see a friend like that in pain and know what its like. And what realy sucks worse then anything is that we can realy do nothing about it other then be there when he needs us. But time will tell. and i sure as hell everything works out with him and his gal. 11 years is not something you can just throw away. nor is 6 months worth that if you have that type of connection. He said some things that hit to heart. "He might not have been the best boyfirend at times with his temper, he might not have treated her right all the time, but you know what we learn from our mistakes and weather you are willing to accept that and build on then she is worth every second you spend with her. I love you to death and i know i will not be able to find another gal like that." Man i feel exactly what he says and feels, cause i and god know that i feel the same about one person, she gave me everything i needed, and i let her slip away. i am the ass for that and i will never know what could have been if we never truely tried. Sad part about it all is that i had a second chance as well as her and still we fucked it up.... well i miss everythign about it. love her and remember the good times. night everyone