Betty's Diary

My loneliness

This is probably a very cliched expression, but very much how I feel right now...

Have you ever been in a room full of people you consider your friends and felt so alone that you wanted to cry?

I have. Now more than ever. I have friends, I have fun. But when I'm sad, or need a shoulder to cry on, I don't know who to go to. Or what to do.

I feel lost. I feel like I'm standing surrounded by a thick fog and I can't see where I am or where I should go. I'm afraid to put one foot in front of the other. I'm so afraid that I stand there, in the middle of God knows where, shivering and unable to move.

I need a ray of light, I need someone to hold my hand. To guide me, to bring me somewhere safe, where warmth and laughter surrounds me, unstead of this cold, unfeeling fog.

I cannot begin to explain all my feelings as I continue standing there in the fog, calling out for someone to help me. At first, my voice is strong, even though I'm scared, but as time passes and no one heeds my calls for help, my voice fades away...slowly and softly.

Will anyone help me?