A chronicle of my life starting from June 21,
2002. |
August 9, 2002 Yeah, this is the same night. Maybe an hour or so later. All the problems in the previous entry are still there, they haven't changed. But I have something great to help me. I don't have to worry about them. For the first time in too long, I went back to God's Word, reading it sincerely. I've never been so desperate for His help in my life, I don't think. After reading the first couple of verses in Jeremiah chapter 2 (which was there when I flipped the Bible open), then a few of the Psalms (also just flipped to), I realized again, truely, that I don't have to worry about anything. Worry is anti-faith. God knows it all, and if I just let Him lead me, there's nothing to fear. He knows where I am, where I'm going, and the same about the Corvette. Everything is just how He wants it to be, and anything that needs to be fixed will be, on His time, not mine. After that, I just broke down. This has never happened to me before. It's a totally new experience. I kneeled down to pray after reading, and I just burst into tears. I just started thanking Jesus for taking my burdens, for putting things into perspective, for being by my side no matter how far I run from Him, for being my God in whom I can have complete faith and beyond. I am so joyous right now, it's hard to pin down the sensation. I can feel the peace in my mind, I can feel the tingles run up and down my body, and I'm having trouble not shouting at the top of my lungs. I can feel it in my throat, I just want to laugh. Joy is something I haven't felt in a long time. What a wake up call. Thank Jesus!! Of course, even though this is kind of a double- entry, I have new recommended listening: My Reason. I don't know who it's by, but it's one of my favorite worship songs. Kudos til later! ~ Dris ~ |