I knew this would happen...

the blow

It's funny how I have had the worst headache for the past couple of weeks. I kept wondering if it was the weather again. But now I see it was my own mind fortelling the pain to come.
I noticed the I love you's stopped, the awkwardness when one of the kids said I love you to him. And then the most painful of all, not so much the end of this relationship - that was not enough to make me cry. But hearing that it is because I was married, that the divorce is not final even though we have been apart for almost 4 years is not enough. That even were the divorce final, he would never tell his family about me because I have two kids.
what a stupid piece of fucking shit he is
how dare he say such a callous thing to me
asshole