My So-Called Perfunctory Existence

Life is what happens to us as we are making other plans

Well I'm still alive-no didn't put that death wish
into effect (yet). It's actually been a reasonably
good week even with all this school crap. I
don't know-I'm just happy. Also a bit shocked-I
was just given some frightening news from
my friend.
Why do people have to change and why so
drastically? I remember knowing so many
people when I was little who now don't even
want to associate with me. Those who have
remained my friends have changed severely
also. It's sad actually, to see what people
were and what they are now. I'm planning on
avoiding high school reunions at all costs in
the future-I don't want to see how people turn
out-it's too depressing. Lives just gone down
the drain...
I've always had this weird dream that I'm at a
reunion 20 someodd years from now and
everybody's walking around with pictures of
their kids and they're married and this and
that-and then there's me. SItting in the corner
by myself, chain smoking away. Just a little
bitter person.
Sorry but I'm sad right now. I don't know what
life will bring me and that's just disturbing right
now. Luck goes out to you gemella