Mouse on the Move

December 21, 2024

I don't want to play catch-up because I can't remember it all.

Jacob came to the house and after he left David went on a paranoid rant about how CMH and all those other people are nothing more than the police checking up on how we live and if we're abusing the kids and on and on. I felt like he was attacking my family. CMH saved my life. It made me very upset.

I have realized I stuff a lot of things now; not dealing with them in a healthy form like I should be doing.

Oh well. None of this matters. After the first of the year I will delete this blog and replace it with one for 2025.

How can things be okay and yet I am so tense I hurt like the Dickens? I want to pull my hair. I want to cut. I want to take a bunch of pain meds.

It's been snowing since Thursday night. I was hoping for a snow day on Friday but I ended up having to go to CMH for an appointment with Amy (psychiatrist). I actually got her to raise my Vistaril so I guess it was a good thing. The Lotus Cafe was giving away coffee and hot chocolate and cookies; which was good as I got there an hour early for my appointment. I said hi to Jacob but he seemed busy. Cathy stopped in the cafe and talked to me a minute. That was nice. I miss her so much.

I should send out some Christmas cards but I don't feel liike it and I don't really have the stamps.

I ama so tired all the time. I can't regulate my body temperature. I don't know what to do most of the time.

All I want to do is rant.