Moonie's Not So Secret Diary

Heartbreak and blessing.

I'm a bit irritated, because Everytime I write something it disappears. I'll try this again.

There's nothing new here really. Other than having my rent go up.

Then, of course, my son is dealing with cancer again, which means more chemo.

He's doing what he needs to in order to survive. I get that, but the thought of...well I better not dwell on the negative stuff.

But then he's thinking of lllme, God bless his sweet soul. That both breaks my heart and makes me feel blessed at the same time.

All these years he has been distant. I know that he doesn't want to cause us pain, but not being with him through his issues, and not knowing if he's okay, just feels horrible. I'd rather know and be there through it all, painful or not.

It's part of being human.