Day to Day happenings in my life

Utter calmness

PROMPT May 10th

Think back to a time when you felt completely calm. What made you feel that way?

Calm to me is when I can shut out all thoughts. That is almost impossible to achieve, unless you’re in an unconscious state.
I’ve tried to meditate but that only seems to make my mind busier. I’ve tried a technique my friend told me to do when meditating and that’s to imagine each thought is a ballon and you pop them as they arrive. Or to imagine they are butterflies flitting from flower to flower!
My grandson tried going in a flotation tank, he said it was relaxing but the thought of lying in a dark box, floating in body heat water, with no sound, almost gave me a panic attack.
Deep breathing does calm and relax me, however I hardly ever get in a state of anxiety these days. Rarely can anyone upset me, except for one person who manages to know which buttons to press and I try to not let her.
I can’t actually think of a special time when I was completely relaxed except maybe slipping under anaesthesia when undergoing surgery. I actually really love that feeling. You know you have no control over whether you’ll wake up again or not. A feeling of complete calm and resignation comes over me. I know I’m weird. 🤔