You sure will have friends who you spent almost all your time with. The kind of friends who you shared all the good and bad with. Friends who you thought knew you the best. Fiends who you trusted the most. But those same friends will be sitting in front of you and will say that you are lucky. They will tell you how you had everything easy. They will say all that without blinking. They even will be explaining. Even if they were near you, they choose not to see that you were struggling. Still they won't quit judging. They will tell you how their wound is deeper. They will tell you how their fight is harder. They will tell you about this right path, and it's theirs. They will tell you how there are some unforgivable mistakes. But when it's their turn to make them, there is always going to be exceptions. They will also tell you the things you should do for your friends. The way they talk will sure get you convinced they care a lot. But they couldn't even tell when you felt lost. When they see you drowning "you're weak" they say. And then when you revive "you got lucky" they will say. They look for reasons not to appreciate your hard work. They will say they would have done it better if they had the same chances. They never want to admit you earned it. They always will be undermining your ability and worth. Little do they know that you don't need their approval to validate your truth. To give your self a pat in the back, you got arms long enough. But every now and then they will try to pretend as if they care. They just don't know that now you can tell that it's all fake. They don't know, so they choose to call their selves your friends. Some even dare to say they're your brothers and sisters. They give them selves names to make you feel as if they're so close. Truth is they don't mind seeing you get all your energy drained. Even if you fall down, they still won't mind. They won't miss a chance to point their fingers. But they won't care to help you up and offer their hands. They still will be expecting a lot from you, but will never do same. At least not in this life time. They will tease you about your dreams, but they will want to be part of it once you make it. But by then they will just be souls you would never trust. You won't have time to waste with people who don't deserve it. You will only have time for your self and it sure would be a better investment. By then for you they will be people you don't like, people you don't hate, and people who you don't want to associate with. |