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 |   Originally for the 30-Day Blog Challenge. Now just a blog about a flailing mermaid |
| Hey guys! Its been a while so I figured, since I’m awake stupidly early, I would actually come by and write a blog post. I’ll be honest; I thought I’d have blogged about my wonderful wedding and honeymoon by now. But so much crap has happened since then that, unfortunately, it feels like a very distant memory. So, as you can probably tell, there is a lot I could blog about. But I think I’m going to be very selfish and write about my broken foot. I’ve been pretty up beat about it so far. However, I have a feeling it might start getting me down! How did I do it? Well… pretty easily really. I was walking from my car to my house – quite desperate for the loo  and about five feet away from my door I tripped and went over on the side of my foot. I was wearing my wedding shoes – simple cream crochet Toms – so there was no protection. As it is, I’m trying not to read anything into the fact that they were my wedding shoes! I acknowledged the pain but I got myself up and hobbled to the door – that was pretty hard work. Then I just crawled in the door, into the living room and rolled round the floor for a bit. Luckily, Chris was off sick from work (another long story) so was immediately down to see what was wrong. He started to call for an ambulance straight away, but I stopped him. I’m usually very good with pain – I can deal with it and get on with it. So, I said “don’t worry, I’ll be fine in a few minutes”. God, I am so stubborn! But when I discovered I couldn’t even get off the floor into the armchair, I had to admit defeat. An ambulance was called and off to A&E we went! Again! (we’d already been there that week for Chris). By the way, our toilet is upstairs. So, no, I didn’t get to the loo – it was a good 90 minutes until I did! Now, those of you who know me and/or have read my blogs/poems/stories, will know that I have an impairment (Cerebral Palsy) but that I am extremely positive about it. You will never ever hear the words “I wish I was normal” (or anything to that effect) come out of my mouth. That is, until something like this happens! You see, the problem is, I am never still – unless I’m asleep or very very calm. When I’m in pain/tired/stressed, I am even less likely to be still. If I try to keep still, its worse. The words I hate anyone saying to me are “keep still”… sheeeesh really?  So, you break your foot, you’re gonna wanna keep it still. Fact! Imagine not being able to! Yup, ouch, it’s going to hurt – a lot! Also, I’m a bit of a horse so painkillers don’t always work on me. I’ll get to that in a bit. First of all they x-rayed my ankle, not my foot. Therefore, told me I was fine. I almost guaranteed them it was broken (I knew, because of the pain – I’m no wimp, as I said). So, they showed me the x-ray to prove it… “err well, yeah I know my ankle isn’t broken, I never suggested it was. Try again!”… So, they did, and I was right! Big ol’ break on the side of my foot! Oh balls! I didn’t actually want to be right! Then the fun really began. The painkillers I’d had were doing nothing. So I managed to get some Oramorph (oral morphine), which did nothing much. I told you, I’m a horse . We then had to work out how to cast it. They offered me a walking boot to start with. But I couldn’t even get it half on… that was that idea out the window.At this point, I feel I ought to explain my feet. I can obviously walk, so when I put my feet on the floor I can get them flat and fairly straight. However, at rest or when I lift them up they naturally turn inwards – because that’s what my muscles want to do, clearly. So, the next option was to cast it and try and cast it straight so I could put some weight on it. So three people tried to do this, while I was on gas and air trying my hardest to relax. They managed to do it pretty well. However, within about five minutes, I was in absolute agony… I could feel my foot fighting the cast trying to pull inwards. I knew this was a bad idea as if it was left like this, it’d continue to fight it and no doubt make the break worse. So, off the cast came ad, despite all the drugs I’d been given, I was still in extreme pain. The only option then was to admit me for a night and give me IV morphine. Luckily that actually did help! Phew! However, they had to cast it just in its natural position. Sounds sensible but it scares me – I’ll come back to that. It was the worst cast ever. It was half plaster, half just bandage. Thankfully, though, it worked and it calmed things down. But a few days ago, it started hurting so much more again and I couldn’t work out why. Turns out, as I discovered on Tuesday, the cast had twisted. This meant the plaster wasn’t actually covering the broken bone . Luckily, yesterday (Wednesday), I went back to the hospital, was x-rayed and recast. So, now I have a proper hard fiberglass cast that ain’t going anywhere! And its purple!  The doctor said I was to come back in four weeks to get the cast off. However, when I went to book my appointment, it turns out he’s on holiday that week so it has to be five weeks! I asked if I could see a different doctor and they said no. Seriously? They’ll give me 15 choices of colour for my cast, but I can’t choose to see a different doctor?? Wow, I’m mad about that. Anyway… My foot feels much more secure in my new cast but I am still scared about its position! Why? Because it is an awful position – basically. I had tendon surgery on my ankle nine years ago (same foot), which was casted in the same position and it took months to get it back in use. Mind you, I did have to train my tendons again so I guess that made it harder. But still, its worrying. Especially as 7 weeks in cast will make you weaker anyway. The only part of my foot I can get on the floor is my toes. So I’m currently a full time wheelchair user. I’m getting pretty good at transferring. But my house is very inaccessible . I’ve been staying downstairs mostly. Luckily we have a very comfy sofa and I can just about squeeze into the kitchen. I also bought a ramp so I can escape out the back door. But that’s about as far as I can go.While I was waiting to be x-rayed, I received an email with my first list of visits for the school year. I have 34 visits to book in so far, which is great that I have work. But I can’t drive! I employ PAs who have said they can help me out. So I might try and get a few half-day visits in in September. I need to make SOME money after not working over the summer! Ohh the downsides of self-employment!Luckily, I’m fairly good at entertaining myself, so I’ve not been too bored so far. While house bound, I have:  Watched three series of Revenge – loved it Two series of The Walking Dead One & a half series of Scandal One series of The Witches of East End Read four awful “celeb” magazines – I hate them Got addicted to word puzzles Lived on coke, coffee, chocolate and cigerettes (the four Cs), pills that make things feel nice ... and some fruit & veg Written a fair few poems. In fact, I am tempted to set myself a goal on Slave Drivers inc to write a poem everyday I’m now in cast. That’s a lot though so maybe every other day? Mind you, I have a few half written.I’ve been totally useless on WDC over the past three months + and I’m sick of seeing myself say “sorry for being useless” – but I really am sorry and will try and get back on track very soon. I’m going to shut up now because this is nearing 1500 words. If you’ve read it all, I’m impressed! But I do have one last thing to say… BIG congratulations to all the new blue Mods, especially Elle - on hiatus  , Cinn and Nixie🦊 here and there  … I’ve seen first hand how hard these two work around here. Its very well deserved and I am proud of you  |
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