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Welcome! ** Images For Use By Upgraded+ Only ** Welcome to my little Den! Here you'll find all sorts of things- mostly blog challenges, but mixed in, you'll notice: ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() |
[Embed For Use By Upgraded+] Story of my life with online group projects. ![]() ![]() ![]() I predict that with my own work, it'll be much easier to turn in than if I did it as a group, since I kinda know what I'm looking to do, so I may just end up doing that. ![]() ![]() I think it should be fun to illustrate, too. ![]() ![]() |
[Embed For Use By Upgraded+] I think this perfectly describes my relationship with the music job. The boss thinks she "owns" my Wednesdays, because Wednesday is my "day with the company," which means she can send me anywhere. Like, Beverly Hills, which, thankfully, hasn't happened yet. But she's trying to add a new school to my schedule and I'm iffy about it. Mostly because of timing, though it's also better than Beverly Hills, where I'd have to drive about an hour or hour-and-half to teach a half-hour class, then drive who-knows-where-to, to my next class, probably. ![]() As I said in my last entry, though, the new local school trial went extremely well. That behavior management song went well, because I added movements to it so they recognize what they're singing- eyes watching (point to their eyes), ears listening (cup their ears), voice quiet (both pointer fingers go "shh" to their mouth), body still (hug themselves). It goes to the tune of Frere Jacque, so it's a familiar melody, just different words, which I like, because it makes it easier for them to learn (in my experience). The goodbye song is also to the tune of "Row your boat," and it's interesting because the school also changed the lyrics of the end, from "life is but a dream," to "life is full of dreams," which probably gives you an idea of what kind of environment they're cultivating. I honestly went in, hoping and trying to not like the school, so I wouldn't have to teach there, and now I actually want to teach there with them, and I want to start the classes with them ASAP. ![]() ![]() You can kinda see that I actually enjoy teaching... it's the lack of communication and lack of planning on the boss's part that really gets me. I mentioned the February 10 email for February 17th incident- after I told her 2 weeks' notice. And when I went on Wednesday, the school said they weren't expecting me. Well, they completely forgot I was coming in, because, (surprise, surprise) the boss didn't follow up with them that I would be going in. ![]() ![]() Mom also made the astute observation today that this lady (the boss) seems very involved in her church (definitely true) and a little disorganized (also very true), and the combination of that leaves her in a position to not be the greatest communicator. I was making small talk with the boss once during the summer and inquired about what her other job was (since she mentioned having one) and she said she helped develop curriculum for the school at her church. Which probably does explain the multitude of Bible-related and Bible books in general, in her living room bookshelves. ![]() ![]() |
[Embed For Use By Upgraded+] I'm planning on going to the Lady Antebellum concert in May this year. Maddie and Tae are opening for Lady A, and I've heard of some of their songs before, so I figured I'd familiarize myself with more of their songs- then Mom made a comment today that made me think of this song. ![]() She'd said "I can't believe it's been a year since you've seen your grandfather (in person)". I told her, "I guess that's what happens when you get a summer job." *shrug* She corrected me and said, "that's what happens when you grow up." That's how I ended up at this song. After that comment, my mind immediately went to, "that's the downside of growing up...." We had another disagreement last night (no surprise there) about how my priorities are all messed up and not ordered correctly. And honestly, yeah, maybe they're a little out of order, but it's also because I'm trying to make my own way through this program, which is really messing me up. It makes me wish I could work my way to a credential, because I feel like these classes are teaching you how to teach, but the specific fieldwork requirements for you to practice are so specific that it makes it hard. Plus, the assessments are weird. ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() Anyways, Mom thinks my priorities are ordered so school is somewhere among the bottom- she's not completely wrong, but it's hard for me to prioritize something when it's not tangible. I mean, barre, and all my jobs, require me to be in a physical space at a specific time. School does not, which makes it hard for me to put effort into it- especially when I have large assignments only worth 6 points. She doesn't think barre and Yard Duty should be prioritized so high, but when I'm not Yard Duty, I'm in the classroom, observing and helping out. Then, barre keeps me sane and fit. ![]() ![]() I think being in a normal classroom, combined with the teaching experience I'm getting from the music job feed off each other, in terms of setting classroom expectations and norms, and becoming more effective. I went to a new school (local) on Wednesday for the music job for a trial class, and it was a HUGE class of 3-5 year olds- 20 of them. Compared to my current one of 7-8 kids, that's almost triple. ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() I completely digress- maybe I'll find a song to use to rave about this new school later. ![]() ![]() My Chinese class dilemma: This class is an additional (optional) class towards my credential that would allow me to teach in a bilingual classroom. Apparently, it also applies to ELL/ESL. BUT if I go ahead with the bilingual authorization (BILA), I'd have to student teach in a bilingual classroom, which is not something that my district has. And the district I'm working in now is the one I grew up attending, so I'd like to stay here if I could... Which would mean I technically don't need BILA, unless that allows me to teach in middle and high school foreign language classes as well, in which case I would probably deem it worth it, but I also can't find a fieldwork location for it yet. When I went to get my withdrawal form signed on Wednesday, the department chair was saying the class was most likely not going to be offered again for a long time, due to low enrollment. The school typically doesn't open a class without 15 people enrolled. There were 8, including me. She also mentioned, though, that I could do fieldwork in a Chinese School. Given the situation in my last entry, I wouldn't be going back to the Chinese School I taught in and asking the principal if I could go observe there, but I do know someone with a connection to another Chinese School, which also provides K-8 education after school, so I asked her if she'd be willing to introduce me/if they'd be okay for me to go observe classes. She emailed the director, and the director hasn't replied yet, so we'll see what they say I guess. ![]() |
[Embed For Use By Upgraded+] I'm 100% sure I've shared this one before, but I did really like the show when I watched it, and this song came back up on my Pandora playlist the other day and I went "oh yeah, that's actually kinda me right now." I've been really quiet on the blog/social front here for about a month or so. I'm pretty sure I mentioned I was trying to process some news and changes in circumstances that I personally didn't quite have time to respond to. Long story short, I'm no longer teaching Chinese School, and it wasn't by choice. One of the co-principals from last year retired, and he was the one who liked me. Yes, the other co-principal didn't like me. ![]() ![]() ![]() So I did, after driving down to the mall, because I still had to work that afternoon. He didn't pick up the first time, so I went and got in line for ice cream. Then he called back. He started out with "there's no easy way to tell you this..." in Chinese. And then English. And I figured, "I'm probably losing my job." And I was right. ![]() ![]() Mom was in barre with me, so after class, I'd already told her and another lady I've become pretty friendly with, about the principal's call, so after getting off the phone with the principal, I called Mom and broke the news to her. And then I had to go into work, smile, be friendly, and act like everything was great. The lead for that afternoon had asked if I had anything to clear- I mentioned the principal's call, and he was just like "oh, okay. Umm *back to business*" ![]() Mom also made me clean out my Chinese school trolley about a week after the news- we'd had another disagreement and she was like, "now that you don't need it anymore, can I have it back? ![]() ![]() Anyways, so Mom saw her friend the other day, who is on the board of the Chinese School. Apparently this friend doesn't actually know what happened- just that my name was gone and there was a new name in my place. *Shrug* Which is interesting, considering Mr. Principal mentioned that the board had helped make the decision. ![]() ![]() ![]() |
[Embed For Use By Upgraded+] This song kinda embodies my life right now. ![]() ![]() ![]() With everything that I'm doing, it really feels too constricting- in the sense that I can't add anything to my schedule without it all falling to pieces. And that's why I'm so concerned about school- once I stopped doing stuff for the Chinese class, I felt like I could somewhat breathe again, but when I went to get the withdrawal form signed, the lady there strongly advised me to keep the class. She also said I could observe at a Chinese School. But I just got let go from a Chinese school, so it's not like I'm planning to go back to the principal (who doesn't like me) and say "May I please observe in one of your K-8 classes?" ![]() ![]() At this point, I feel like I'm just in a constant state of "I kinda know what I'm doing but all due dates are very hazy." And, as someone who prefers to turn in assignments on time or early, it's a less than ideal state in which to be. ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() |
[Embed For Use By Upgraded+] Another song from barre. ![]() For starters, the music job is definitely making its way up the list. I guess I haven't vented about it yet here, but it's so driving me crazy! The boss's lack of organization makes it hard to plan for a meeting time, and I have 3 jobs, plus a steady barre schedule, so that adds another aspect to plan around. Naturally, I don't say it's barre, I just say I'm generally unavailable because of school or something else. ![]() ![]() Anyways, we've been trying to find a meeting time/day since the 10th of February, when she asked if we could meet on the 17th. The 17th was a holiday day, so I already opened up that day for a shift at lululemon, which I told the boss. I'd also previously told her (since she mentioned the lack of flexibility in my schedule) that if she wanted me on a weekend, she could tell me 2 weeks in advance and I'd block off the day on the lulu calendar for her. Do the math- meeting on the 17th, and asking on the 10th.... that's 7 days. ![]() She goes back to the 17th- what about the early evening? Again, I'm working a shift that day.... shifts are typically 5-8 hours long, so no, I can't do early evening. ![]() So, she wants to do 6 pm meetings, which for me is too late... and also, who wants to go to a work meeting at 6pm? ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() |
[Embed For Use By Upgraded+] Full disclosure- I just wanted to put Delta Goodrem into this playlist so I plugged her name into Youtube and clicked the first video. BUT this kinda qualifies.... read on to find out more. ![]() So about 2 (3?) years ago, I went to study abroad in Australia, right? Chinese New Year was during one of the breaks between the semesters so I was in Tasmania for the Chinese New Year event. All the planning, all the prep, all the set-up, break-down, etc. There was one day, Mom and I were at the venue, and these sets of siblings (2 families? about 6 "kids" total) were planning to sing this song. They were up on stage, practicing. Then the mom from one of the sibling sets came over and was like, "hey, why isn't Dragon up there? She should be singing too!" Mom and I both went, " ![]() ![]() ![]() Anyways, fun story- the day that mom "suggested" I go up to sing with everyone else, was about 3 days before the actual performance. The older girl (probably early teens? 13-14 y/o) from the 4 sibling family asked me when we were backstage, on the day of the performance, if I'd practiced. Internally, I went, Yes, of course I practiced, what kind of question is that? Instead, I told her, in all sincerity, "Yes, I practiced the song 1000 times every day." She believed me. ![]() ![]() In conclusion, if people tell you they practice something 1000 times a day, they're probably lying and trying to get you off their back. Very much like I did. ![]() ![]() |
[Embed For Use By Upgraded+] I went through a J.Lo phase briefly a while back and this song was part of it. I re-found it because barre had a "Super Bowl/J.Lo+Shakira" playlist and this song was on it. I also heard it at work today as I was dusting the store. ![]() ![]() ![]() This seems to be today's theme- women doing stuff for incapable men. Mom told me she was chatting with one of her friends on Saturday and they were trading travel tips (the friend just went on a long cruise and it seemed decadent!). Anyways, the friend told her of another friend (the friend's friend) whose husband was highly incapable of traveling alone. The wife had to pack his luggage, iron his stuff, double check everything, do all the arrangements... whatever it was, she probably did it. So Mom's friend told the lady, "you need to train him!" so the next time they traveled, the wife did nothing. He managed to pack his clothes, but then after they got home, the wife realized he'd left all his clothes at the hotel. ![]() The female conclusion to this story is undecided- whether he did it on purpose or not- he could've forgotten the clothes by accident because of his ineptitude, or he could've purposely left the clothes there, because why bother with them? ![]() Aside from this song being fun and dancey, there's really not much else I can say about it. Mom noted that I was very hyper today coming back from work at 8 pm, while last night I was all "Don't bother me." The difference, I suppose, would be that I forgot I had coffee in the back today, and I didn't drink much of it until 3-4, and then a little more around 5-6, whereas I finished my coffee pretty early yesterday. I also don't tend to drink coffee, but I think my body no longer accepts caffeine from Thai tea because I drink it too much and I don't feel alert after drinking it anymore. ![]() ![]() ![]() |
[Embed For Use By Upgraded+] Okay so I've only heard this song a handful of times, but I'm super hyper tonight because I had a coffee around 3 pm and the caffeine is just now kicking in. ![]() About this song: I first heard/saw it on the American Music Awards and somehow, I loved it. ![]() ![]() ![]() Anyways, this song- yes, I do have a "fiery" side to me. I control it pretty well in public, just because I'm not quite sure yet how that would manifest in everyday life. In private, though, it comes out pretty frequently. For example, having to turn in a group assignment for an online class, in which I did not have a group, last night. ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() Also, most people know I don't *tend to* swear. I mean, working with kindergarteners, you can't really freely express yourself in colorful language in front of them, like you might be able to if you were working with high schoolers, and even that's somewhat debatable in terms of professionalism. ![]() ![]() |
[Embed For Use By Upgraded+] I just realized I missed an assignment due on Sunday... School is absolutely torturing me at this point. I like my classes well enough, but the way the LMS is organized.... it's supposedly amongst the worst people have seen. For example, my math class has about 20 weekly assignments- it's the same type of assignment and it's something you have to do every week. We also have another type of assignment that's due every 2 weeks, "book practice," says the professor. ![]() ![]() So, tacking this on to my post from last night, also ranting about school, and my lack of time to do much else but school and work, this will be another one. Feel free to skip this if you're not interested. So, school: I found a class to do social studies observation in! Saw my class's "buddy" teacher today and we chatted briefly in the hallway, so I asked if she does social studies yet (I also asked the class mom, because her older son is in 2nd grade, but the teacher has been out for about 2 weeks soooo I couldn't exactly go ask that teacher.) and they're starting a social studies unit in 2 weeks! She said they're doing gummy bear voting (if I heard right) and it's going to be cute, so I'm looking forward to it. Probably just means that I may need to start doing all my social studies stuff for third grade instead of fourth. ![]() Math class- I'm enjoying the math portion of it, actually. I enjoy math, as you probably already know... Reading- still need to email my host teacher about the requirements for this class, and then I need to go observe in first grade for language arts because they want emergent readers. ![]() Chinese- I'm most likely withdrawing from this class because I can't find a fieldwork placement for this. Relation to the song- school is absolutely breaking me. Had another "your priorities aren't set straight" conversation with Mom. As somebody with 30 years more experience than I do, she expects me to also have those 30 years of experience. The music job sprung a renewal contract on me and I was completely unprepared and was not expecting it. We're at half a year right now- I didn't think she'd give me anything about renewing the contract until later. Plus, I thought it would be more of a conversation about the company and a "so do you think you'll return?" type of thing, as opposed to "Here's a contract for next year, with your half-year review." If I had gotten my two cents in, I would've requested that I stay on only to teach at the school I'm teaching at right now, and/or anything within the district I currently work in. I mentioned it to Mom and she's like "I told you, you should've said 'I need to think about it'." Well, yes, Mom, that is a great idea, but I did not think of that when the contract was sprung on me, and now I'm kinda stuck in for another year. ![]() Summed up: I'm in a pretty bad mood tonight from realizing that I missed the assignment, but also, I did just come off the high of the 100 days of school festivities at school. ![]() |