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Experiences and thoughts based on my everyday life |
| This book will contain my daily thoughts. |
| I did something a little drastic and spontaneous this weekend. I announced to my fiancé that I want to have black hair for our wedding. I am naturally blonde, and my hair had been red for quite a while. Going black is a big decision, as it is really tough to go lighter, once you move to the dark side. But I have really been embracing my witchiness, and with the state of the world, I wanted a way to make a silent statement and decided to dye it black. But not just any black, oh no... I went into the most blue black I could find, and threw caution to the wind. I ain't gonna lie, it's harsh. But the look in Rick's eyes says it all. It's like I upped the sexiness a few points. I keep catching him staring at me with a broad smile plastered across his face. It makes me giggle The new look definitely plays into my gothic youth, and also embraces my role as a crone, which I am leaning into very hard these days. The new look is still a little shocking upon looking in the mirror, and will take a little getting used to, but I am here for it. I will have long, flowing Morticia Addams hair in time for the wedding. It will match my black wedding dress perfectly. |
| My first official blog entry here! I am still getting my bearings now that I have decided to take writing a bit more seriously. Please be patient with me as I figure it all out. So here we go... my name is Samantha. Sam for short. I have only very recently started to embrace the shorter version of my name, and it is still only okay for people to use if they ask nicely, and I am already leaning toward liking the person. I have used many names over the years, depending on what I was doing for work at the time. During my days as a radio producer and photographer, I used the name Scarlett. I used Scarlett for so long, it stuck, and I used it in my everyday life for a very long time. I only started using my "government name" when I discovered that my fiancé's daughter is named Scarlet. I thought it would be too confusing for the kids, and his family, if I continued to use Scarlett, so after much deliberation, I made the change back. This caused quite a bit of confusion from others, some of whom did not know that my actual name was not the one they had been referring to me as for years. But they've adapted. My photography business is still under the Scarlett umbrella, and I am not in any particular hurry to change that. So it will stay for now. For so long, having adopted the name Scarlett became a way for me to hide. I wasn't happy as Samantha, and assumed that I could step into the Scarlett persona, and I was safe there. Scarlett was a name that denoted a sense of confidence and charisma, things I thought I lacked as Samantha. Through a lot of therapy, and a stark message from my spirit guides, a message that was delivered by the woman I called my woo-woo guru, who was my reiki healer at the time, and along with my partner's daughter's name being the same, I made the decision to go back to using Samantha exclusively. To say the message from my ancestors was loud and clear is an understatement. They kept sending the message-That's not her name!I was driven to make the correction that would please them, and myself. So here I am. Standing firm in who I am. My name is Samantha. Samantha Marie. My middle name comes from my great grandmother on my dad's side. A strong Sicilian woman built like a brick house, much like that of most of the women in our family. We are nothing if not built from hearty stock. If you'd like to know more, please ask away, because I have a lot to say. |
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