What is no more.

A/N: this is a blur of thoughts right now. At least until I get the time to change it into something. I may just leave it as is.

I don't know what to do or where to go.

The only shoulders I have to cry on are states away.

And when I cry its tears of blood.

Im lost. Confused. Haunted, by my past.

Memories I thought were long gone have returned.

Old stories, of a cousin, who was there when I was younger, now gone I scream for the past.

An uncle who cared even when he was in bad shape now elsewhere as ashes, leaving me to cringe with fright.

Sleepless nights.

Lonely days.

I miss life.

I miss people, even when they are nearby.

I miss existence.

I miss innocence.

I miss simplicity.

I miss the ignorant life I once had.

Call me crazy for it but it was better.

I scream out in pain from the details of a family I thought I knew.

How each person suffered.

What each person did to be hated by others.

I am alive in flesh but dead in my soul.

Where to turn next I know not.

I fight with ever tangling walls.

Just let me out.

Stop me.

Free me.

Bring me back.

Please. I ask of you.

Resurrect ones lost soul, a cousin, an uncle.

Take me back in time.

Let me change this.

It could have been prevented.