last free one befor i take aother name

i strive for calm and peace in chatoic places
when i need to relaxe i listen to some realy intense music
i yearn for the feeling of being underwater
being underwater, just bobing near the surface afoors me a peace like no other on earth
its a shame drowning must be such a terifying expereience when it can begin so wonderfuly
as i wake there is this pervading stillness in my brain
a sort of emptyness, where i can feel the space in my head
and my eyes feel like they are turned within and i am expereinceing vision from another source,
still my own but another version of me.
along with this emptiness came a numbing of my body, like a dark cloud were spiraling in and out of me
when this happens to me i am unnaprotable, unrecongizable even to my own family
i am out taking a walk and this other part of me deep in my subconcious surfaces and takes complete controle
i dont think its anything malevolent, perhaps i am the malevelant spirite and he is not, perhaps this is not me typing my the other version of me, maybe they are both figmants of my imaginaiton...that would make a thrid to fulfill this strange trinity.