false

my lip quivers slightly
you look at me
i wonder what you think
my cocky smile is false
i cant do anything else
you say words
that i dont hear
you are so close
in body
in heart and mind
you're in a different place
with a diffrent face
smiling prettily at you

oh how i wish he was you
he kisses my lips softly
not trying to hurt me
i wonder if he can see
that its you i wish was here
with me
he tries now to be my friend
after he brought the end
of my self confidence
my self relience

my smiles
are all fake now
i hear peoples thoughts in my head
it makes me wonder
if im ever good enough