Embracing the Great Silence

Embracing the Great Silence

I sit and wonder and ask myself, the action I should take, the correct thing to do, I know
How does my mind convince my heart, to come about
How can I say goodbye?
Do I tell my heart, the love is gone, or was it ill begotten
Do I say it was all a pack of lies, a game, no
My heart has felt the great love, the touch of your heart to mine, intimacy
The love is real and has grown over the years, there is a closeness, an indivisible bond
I thought we could be friends forever
Yet in the end, it was misguided, and in the end misspent, in the end dashed against the rocks

What do I do with the pain, the profound sense of loss, the emptiness that gnaws on the soul
Knowing, the green light will shine no more, the in-box will always be empty
Never again, to share our joys and sorrows, burdens shared are halved

So my friend, I am sitting on the horns of a dilemma, betwixt and between, pondering
My mind knows what to do, my heart is dragging it's feet
It would be so much easier, to not feel, to not care, to just let it go
The heart screams an emphatic, no!
I remember
I feel
I care
It will always be that way, to the last heart beat

You may never read these words, they may be lost in cyber - space, eternally searching for you
The words are true and bespeak of struggle and a certain longing, a great love
How can the mind and heart be reconciled, what must they do?
Time will help to ease the hurt, to forgot is out of the question
How can I say goodbye?
How do I let you go?
How do I do what I must?
I wish I knew