Broken & Life

Broken is all what I am right now
Shattered is what u will find me right now
Miserable is what my life has become right now
Everyone I loved turned their backs
Everyone I trusted showed what they really are
The ones I needed and knew would b there for me
Were never mine...were never there
But...wt do u think
I am gonna to live like this now
Am I gonna b your toy
Am I gonna b some of your time pass...again
Then think again
Coz that’s not gonna happen
U won’t find me loving again
U won’t find me trusting nemore
And most of all...u won’t find me depending upon anyone nemore
Just because...u won’t find me in this condition nemore
I wont b here...thinking of us
U wud find me here thinking about me
U won’t find me pondering over the past
U wud find me here lookin at my future...just mine
U won’t get me when u need me
Coz I am not someone to b used nemore
What do u think that I am gonna fall for that again
Gonna believe u r a part of my world
Never gonna make that mistake again
No ones gonna b a part of my world
Coz in this world...u r on your own
And no one gives a shit when u fall
Once u fall...u do realize
U won’t find those lending hands
Which were once with u when u were on the top
Coz this world is a fake
All the emotions are a fake
All the words that people speak about love and friendship are a fake
Those are just like hallucinations
No matter how bad u want and even see it
Its gonna disappear one day
And leaving memories...bad memories
And u won’t find me living with those again
U won’t even find me recognizing u nemore

<<<A DAY LATER>>>

Life has become a real bitch
I have no place to go...no place to hide
No place to run too
The only thing I am running from is the reality
Now I am tired of running
But...when I stopped...I realized I left the reality very behind
I had actually drifted away from myself...lost myself
Lost the battle...the battle of this life
Sometimes I try to move on...sometimes I think of going back
I am in a state of utter confusion...
In my mind...it’s a total chaos
I am so used to loneliness now...that loneliness is what I seek now
Sometimes...this depression prevails over me
Making me wanting to cry...and sometimes do make me cry
The mind and the heart have become so numb
That they don’t trust ne more
Don’t love nemore...
I know I can’t do this...but I have to
After all...life is a bitch
Laughter and joy has become a thing of past now
A fake smile on a down face is in now
I dun no for how long will I be able to tolerate this
For the anger is growing...and the hope is dying