Questions Still Unanswered

What is life? Where is my life? I see my dreams but they are so far away. My heart beaten and bruised can not take much more of my own self destruction. I wasted so many years and lost so many memories that should have been mine. I exist only to rot in my own living hell. Death sometimes would seem like a blessing. All of the people I love could say their good-byes and know that I loved each and every one of them. I don't want an easy way out. I just want the simple life. No more pain, drama, anger or dishonesty. I just want love based on truth and hapiness. My Dreams and my desires! I should not be punished for wanting to think of myself. I deserve to love and respect myself without feeling guilty because others do not share my dreams.