Torn and Defeated

I feel confused. I feel defeated. I feel bloody...broken...stepped on. I feel my soul has been torn to shreds. My flesh feels like it's burning at the places you've touched. You've given me delusions of granduer, but instead led me down a path of constant disappointment. You used to make me smile and now all I can do is cry at the thought of you. You can be so nice but now I know it's just a facade. Your piercing blue eyes which once fascinated me now terrify me. Your smile which brought me much joy is nothing but evil. why did I fall for you and why am I still enamored by you? Why do you keep me on this leash of yours? Why do I still yearn for your touch? Do you want me or not? I need an answer now! Don't keep me hanging. I've been faithful. I've hung to every word you've said...I've done everything you've ever asked me. All I ask is that you love me and that you stop playing with my emotions. It hurts so bad. Don't let me hurt anymore