Torn

Just barely grazing my body, you sit there with no remorse
As my thoughts spin around my head and bring me down with them
No one knows but me, I never told a soul
The hate grows and grows
I was so young and fragile
But you took me as I was, wide open and crushed
My little eyes will never be pure again
For what you did to me, I will never live without the scars
It’s already been done, the past can never be unseen
Can never be turned back and wiped clean
From my mind and my eyes, you took everything from me
And I just let you, I felt so dirty
You kept the truth from her all these years
But nothing else explained the breakfast you burnt
While I was used as your entertainment
Just something to play with
But why!?
Why was I the one thing you needed, why did you leave me torn?
Were these the ideas going through your head the day I was born?
I was just a little girl, I didn’t understand
I wish I could go back to that day and never let you in
Never let you get so close to me
Stripped apart from what was taken from me
I can’t even try to be, what I now can never be
You left me like this, torn and silenced
It stands between us, this invisible division
Because as I grew up, you knew I was smart enough
To make my own decision
And stop you from going too far
While you laugh away, the jokes on me
Because with these memories, I can’t breathe
Having to hide your sacred lie
That you left for me all this time
I will never escape