I hate the way....

I Hate the way…

I hate the way I want you,
I hate the feeling, though it’s not new,
I hate the color in your eyes,
I hate the way I give her lies,
So she doesn’t guess,
How much that I obsess,
The way you make me smile,
My mind has your face on file,
The way that I have to hide,
All of my feelings on the inside,
The way I am so shy,
I wish that you would try,
And avoid me every day,
So I won’t take you away,
She’s too happy with you,
She loves everything you do,
I hate the way I betray,
With the feelings I get day to day,
I hate how you’re truly sweet,
I blame my rapid heartbeat,
For the sweat upon my neck,
The rapid train wreck,
That goes on inside my head,
My feelings over bled.
I hate the way you get along with everyone,
Love her even when she’s undone,
I hate how you’re so nice,
Can be loud or like mice,
I hate your look,
The way you read me like a book,
The way they pull me like a magnate,
The pieces and the fragment,
Of my heart that is warmed when you walk by,
I hate the way you try,
To always talk to me,
No matter the reverie,
That you will have to break,
I hate the way you make my heart ache,
The way that I must try,
To tell every lie,
She is my best friend,
I chose to never end,
The friendship I cherish so much,
She’s like the perfect crutch,
To me and I can see,
That this is how I want to be,
I hate how I know it’s more than a crush,
How you make my heart turn to mush,
But most of all I hate the way that I can’t seem to hate you.
That’s what makes me want you anew,
The only problem is… I know she wants you too.

~Erabella Trint