ONE WORD, AN ESCAPE, NEVER!

ONE WORD, AN ESCAPE, NEVER!
timothy cox

if only there was a word
one word for all i feel
the one word to erase it all
like she wants
like i want it to come slow
ever so slow
and as it comes let it be sudden
and invisible to all that i feel
just one touch,
one touch and she'll heal
but i will never
so all is lost forever

the last take
if only it could
make me feel so real
no more sidelines
not another deal
just needs to be right
for both in the light
as the curtains are drawn
and the set come crashing
crashing into a heavy fall
hoping to help us all

nothing will ever help
ever stop
ever heal
for the pain that encircles my head
not in the form of a halo
but of heat waves of confusion
my brain exploding soon
but nothing will ever help
and as the feeling of nothingness
and of life being nothingness begins to slow
a new feeling sets in and i know it will only get worse
there is but one hope of a future
beyond what just came and passed
and it is that it might come again
and let it be that when it may return
it returns not for me
but for the lost soul who cant find her future
and doesnt want it
and therefore doesnt deserve it

pity on those who want to end the suffering
but pity more on those who want to go back in time
for doing so will only make them have to relive the very moment they must escape

in life
in death
in anything that matters and all that doesn't
there is no escape
no pain no ending to anything
including this never-ending poem
that wakes and sleeps inside of me from day to day