Dangling

My heart is at your mercy
I am dangling by a thread
I'm confused about the present
And I fear what lies ahead
You promised me a lifetime
Though I have sadly learned
I may never have this lifetime
I thought that I had earned.
I feel cheated and abandoned
To this lonely world of mine
I try to keep believing
That one day things will be fine
Deep down I know I've lost you
And I'm struggling with the pain
I don't know what to to
To bring you back to me again.

Why do I deserve this now,
After all that we've been through?
All I've done is love you more
Than anyone loves you.
To you I gave my promise
And my promise I did keep
To always be here for you
With a love so rare and deep.
My love, my life, my everything
One heart, one soul, one brain
The words you spoke so often
Seem to no longer remain.

I feel like I have lost my place
I've become so very small
As if you're pushing me away
When I've given you my all.
We dreamed a dream
We carved a path
To a future we would share
We called the dream our mission
And vowed together we'd get there.
You had focus and were driven
By the love held in your heart
You said was for eternity
And we would not remain apart.

I've more than proved my love for you
Stood by you all the way
And every time you said "hang on"
I promised I would stay
I've never given up on you
I've been true all along
For you to now give up on me
Is painful and it's wrong.

You cannot bear to see my tears
And so you run away
Avoiding me so you won't see
The hurt I feel each day
It's like I'm being punished
For hurting over you
When you could turn this all around
If you wanted to.
Please don't take away from me
When I've given you so much
Two years of fighting for a life
I reach for but can't touch.

You hold all the cards now
I am helpless as I wait
For you to either come to me
Or go, if that's my fate.
You know that would destroy me
It would tear my world apart
My life would be so empty
You would more than break my heart
Please give me the same chance
As I have given you
Each day that I have waited
For you to make the dream come true.