No Turning Back

My arms were up in surrender
I sucked in the moist air around
Looking inside myself, or was I?

With the music, I danced in the trance
I soaked in its melody and swayed
There were people around me, or were there?

A weight crashed down heavy on my heart
I gulped against the burning in my throat
I should be falling down, or could I?

My eyelids clenched tight down
I felt the streams of water on my cheeks
The roof sprang a leak, or did it?

The burden was heavy; my throat closed
I breathed shallow not knowing why
I must have done something wrong, or did I?

My head fell back in a strained breath
I let my arms fall heavy to my side
This was God's plan to hurt me, or was it?

A wash of peace hit me as a waterfall
I took it fully in, and my body relaxed
My eyelids fluttered, no tears, or were there?

No pain, no sadness weighed on my chest
I stood in a rush of silence all around me
My belly swirled in warm pleasure, why would it?

The questions disappeared from my mind
I surrendered to a touch of a hand
She was praying, saying something, what was it?

Her hand was on my belly and it stirred
I held my arms out, enjoying the trance
My knees gave way; I fell, now would I land?

Gentle arms caught my fast fall to the ground
I lay there and my muscles gave way
My Lord's waterfall didn't stop, would He let it?

Holy Spirit rain down on me, don't stop
I felt nothing like it before; I trembled
New eyes You gave me, could it be true?

Falling, falling, though I was on the ground
I sank deeper into the white silence
New feet You gave me, to stand firm, You knew?