You need to take out some of those "hads". If you're going to end with "that was the beginning", it probably makes sense to begin with "it started" in the first paragraph and not the second.

As is, it actually reads like a half-way decent voice-over narration at the beginning of an indie film.

I know this is the first chapter, and an introductory one, but when you're not giving the reader anything concrete in terms of the physical and instead are giving them emotional and largely esoteric terms that dance around any real action, it might be a good idea to include the second chapter in this first instalment on this site.

I would watch this film. I'm unsure I'll click to the next chapter of this story though. That's the nature of serialisng on a writing site, and no judgement on your actual story.