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Happy New Year

Happy New Year

Naw-Rúz, the Bahá'í New Year's Day coincides with the spring equinox. It is also an ancient Persian festival celebrating the “new day”.

30DBC: Share a time when your mouth hung open in shock/awe/surprise/wonder etc. What was it that made you feel that way?

I can't quite say that's what I felt this evening. I feel calmer for some reason. That's a good way to start this new year, 177 B.E.

Prosperous Snow celebrating has an entry on the new year: "Looking Forward to Spring"  and I tried to find her blog entry on the Seven Valleys, but to no avail ... It would seem pertinent to my feelings at the moment.

I've not been happy for the last couple decades. Depression is an invisible weight that some of us bear. Those who don't suffer from it can't quite grasp how debilitating it can be.

Tonight I felt a weight lift ... not sure how or why but "The Watchman" from "The Seven Valleys" seems appropriate. Sometimes the road is blocked and the answer is NO! And we don't know why until much later when it becomes clear that that particular road was not ours to travel.

Tonight I'm okay with having my travel plans unravel. It's not safe where I am, but then, it's not safe anywhere.

Nor has it been safe to care about certain people over my lifespan, but tonight? Tonight I'm fine with that too. The "loves of my life" have been there "for a reason, for a season or for a lifetime." And it's not for me to choose which. Along the way my purpose is to love, unconditionally, in whatever small way I can.

So ... I have felt shock/awe/surprise/wonder about them.

And thinking of them is a good way to start the new year.

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