What am I Doing Here?

Holiday Time Sadness

This will be my first Christmas with a new address and a new family, to speak of.
The home is beautiful but filled with items from two families. It has worked out so far.
The weather was a beautiful. It was in the 60s and dry. When we walked our dog, Balto it would have been a pleasure if my foot was not sore. The surgery has not completely healed. Dr. M. says that the swelling and soreness probably will be cured (?) in one year's time. I am now using little gel pads for my bunion. Otherwise I walk carefully.
The biggest item here is that I am sad because my sister-in-law Millie, Bert's wife died a terrible and probably painful death from cancer on the 5th of December. Today is the 24th. I know that they wanted to not be bothered by relatives but I can't help that Stanley and I were close to them. Bert asked me to not tell Fred or David but I cannot keep this from other family members who wanted to make peace. I feel a deep sorrow that Millie did not get the funeral or burial that could have been done. But it was her wish. Rest in peace Millie. You were a good sister-in-law to me. I hope to see you when God calls me.