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what did i get meyself into

i am a libra. i don't really believe in most of that stuff but supposedly libras are people who liked to be sought after. i don't know maybe all people are like that, i am not very experienced in others dating prefrences. is this some ranandom realization that i have had? unfortunetly, no. alex and i have been together for a month. again. i care about him, we have said "i love you" so basically we are in deeper then either of us has been before. but of course some of the things that were wrong the 1st time are still wrong. i feel like sometimes he thinks i am just a burden, i'm a girlfriend when it is convient for him. he goes to the bar or whatever sat night. i go to work when he gets off. i have school. saturdays are unspoken, they are "game day" he spends all day playing the latest video game that he just can't live without playing. sundays he is recovering from saturday night, when he recovers i am already for work. we never spend any time together. i feel like he never puts in any effort at all. yesterday i went to his house after i got off school, i was excited, i thought i would be able to spend some time with him. finally. the two of us. i got to his house, his roomate and him were cleaning, that i understand. he however barely said "hi" i had more of a conversation with his roomate then him. as soon as they were done they sat down to play some halo 2. yay. oh, but he did finally talk to me. he asked me to go get them some food. ok. so i went to get some kfc. kitchen fresh chicken. ha ha ha. i got the food he wanted, he gave me 21 the bill was 31. freaking great. so i paid it all. at this point i was done. my work called. surprise suprise i had to go in on my day off. so not only did my supposed boyfriend want to spend time with me during the little time that i had off there would be a lot less.
i got upset with him and then talled my self trough it . i apologized for blowing up, but said i stood by what i said . i'm going to call april and talk with her.