Monkeys

My my, how things change!

Well, today has been a day of ups and downs. The cousins left for home.
There have been five of them here all weekend. I loved spending time
with them, but it was a weekend of hardly any sleep. So, here I am
in my room, relishing the thought of no little hands going through
my things, no one trying to clean my room- and just loosing my things.
No one yelling, no fighting....and my phone rang. Twas Eric. For the
first time in days, I was perky. Having a great moment. Then, I relaized
he wasn't perky. And that is a must for him. Something was wrong. Very
wrong. To make a long story short, we have decided to call it cool on
our relationship. Not to be together. Yeah. Shocked? Me too. Did
I ever think this day would come? Maybe. But I thought it would be more
of...oh, maybe in a few months....after we had tried to work things out
in person. Not now. Before I even moved. But I am okay. Yep, I am.
No, he is not a jerk....do not reply to this if you are going to say that.
This is just to let you all know....not to knock anyone down. Given the
circumstances, it is best for now. Yes, I am still going to move. I have
to give it a try, or I will never know. Not about the relationship, but because
I was going to move before this ever came up. I wanted to move....before
we had even given a relationship a thought. My reason for going has always
been to see if I can make a better life for myself. And I will try.
The relatioship was just a perk. A big perk, but a perk.

Know that I am okay. I am not holding a grudge. LOL- no really. I am not.
I am okay. It will just be different.....

The Bek