Journal

so................. what shall we talk about?

november 21
my parents seem to be pushing me away. i have been spending lots of time with my friends. and i am refusing to go to our yearly thanksgiving thing. this year i just don't feel like getting in the car for 5 hours and spending 3 days in surban hell. everyone is so uptight. they never show that they are actual people-- not models for l.l. bean or something. when i was younger i wanted to be like them. now i just kinda feel sad for them.
so thanks giving.... alone with the guinea pigs. hey not too bad. :P
yesterday was my best friend's birthday, i worked my ass off to make sure she had a great birthday and i think it paid off. i hope it did. her birthdays are extremely important to her. mine aren't really that important to me, this last one was but nothing intresting happened. you know what i think is weird my best friend's boy friend was born the same day as her (8 years before her) and at the exact same time!! isn't that strange?
right now i'm worried about my friend. he is a kind of nut case at times and he hasn't called me even though my # is on his caller id. i think he had a wild night last night and he wasn't in school today. he suffers from depression and who knows what he will do after a crazy night? last time it just wasn't good. i don't know.... i hate having to worry about whether or not my friends are going to live through the week. i'm going to call him.