Thoughts and Feelings by Jake

Love and Pain in Forbidden Romance

I can't take it anymore. To see someone that I care very deeply about and developing more feelings for everyday, not feel the same. I don't know. I guess I was disillusioned. I thought that she felt the same, but apparently not. I have to get out now before my heart falls apart and me with it. I think she has feelings for me but not as strong as mine. I do know she is in a situation that forbids us to be together, but my mind and heart are at odds on that one. I will have to leave very soon. Whether it is back to where I was before or just away from here near here. I'll tell you that the sight of her this morning just blew me away, but its not meant to be, I guess. Of course, right now I am just feeling alone and maybe in the future something will develop. The one thing I do know is that there are plenty of other women out there and I know I won't have a problem finding one, but she is the one I want and that's what hurts. Why did I listen to her and move back? Maybe one day I'll find out. As for now, one day at a time.