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July 12 and 13 blah blah

A bit of a rant I wrote earlier and posted as today's personal blog. "Traffic jam? You asked for it! " 

23c and 144 AQI at 11:30. I'm stuck at home. It's dangerous to go outside.

Not in the mood to write but I better be... soon.

The compressor under my window for the floating business (new this summer) is annoying. I dare not go out because of the smoke. My room is hot. It's hotter outside. I just don't feel very happy today.

Well, I took a shower, ate mashed potatoes and I'm avoiding all the things I have yet to do. But I feel good.

Just responded to Brian K Compton

There are so many times I feel misunderstood that it comes as a shock when someone does understand me.

1. this is a social media site, not a writing site... sad, but MFA writing groups are no better.
2. judges... lots of work. Some do the best they can but aren't really qualified. Makes me question whether my winners aren't truly trash. Blue/Purple case doesn't = qualified.
3. I'm not good at joining groups IRL. Same here. Tight circles bind me.
4. some of the groups are "family friendly" which basically tells me I'm not family. Because they are uber-polite they don't say stfu... but I hear it.
5. I may never win some contests because the judge does not like me or doesn't like what/how I write. No clue because they never honestly review.

I don't review often. I've forced myself but found much of what I was given to review was less than mediocre and I was giving out 2.0s. I personally understand mediocre but so much was cringe-worthy.

30c and 112 AQI at 8 p.m. Never went outside. The AQI tends to get worse overnight as cool air sinks so we shall see.

Listening to Radio Bari (Italia) on Radio.Garden Mavis Moog now lives in that area. I may get to visit if I ever get my butt out of Montana.

Wrote: "PPC#6 Dominicalito [186]" . January is "summer" in Costa Rica.

JULY 13

"Blogging Circle of Friends "  Prompt: Have you ever had a song running through your head, and you just had to sing it aloud. Tell us about the experience.

I have "Lom" (Wind) going through my head right now. I need to learn the lyrics. This has the lyrics.



And 1000 Stars:



I wore a mask to the grocery store because of the smoke. Not as bad as yesterday. Too late to mail important stuff (pickup is 10 a.m.) so I might have to brave the heat and go downtown to the post office. If so, I'll find somewhere cool to park my butt on the way back.

I'm parked at Butterfly Herbs. Paid $134 for a year for my p.o. box. I don't want stuff piling up at my door. Posted postcard to Gare and Anna-Maria. Received postcard (Tiriti Matangi) from Elle, sent from New Zealand June 30th.

This week should be expensive if I do what I needed to have done last month.

My mood is lifting.

Saw Travis off to Pennsylvania. I want to leave so bad! Bri leaves tomorrow for Connecticut. I'm boycotting the Senior Center because it's bullshit to make us sit outside in the smoke.

At least it's cool here. Hope to get fan in window this week. I'll have to move bright orange kolanchoe that's in bloom but they'll cope.

Home: hot, stifling. Bri gave me some peanut sauce, satay... I'm cooking up fish.

I lay down for a nap... it doesn't matter what I do. I'm deflated by the heat and bad air. It's 79 degrees at 10 til 10 with a slight breeze. The AQI is down to 64. But... still quite uncomfortable inside.

Some good news... maybe... If Medicare expands to cover vision, hearing and dental then maybe I can have all 3 done. The US has been very reticent to cover real health needs. We'll see about drugs. If Montanans can legally buy drugs in Canada then that's going to increase the quality of life substantially for some folks.

I told Robert:

"Annette needs to tell us more about frieght ships. Like where's the links! How to do it! I've thought about it for years because I've never done it.

With triple digits in the forecast and air in the hazardous zone yesterday we ain't happy here in Western Montana. Or I should say, I'm not. The last bad Smoke Season I got caught in damaged my lungs. And I don't like stifling heat.

Oh... to pooh pooh your bad news... ... if Medicare expands to include vision, hearing and dental... I desperately need all three.

That said, not one week goes by without there being something that pisses me off. I've cut back on spoozenook and that has helped. I'm tired of the anti-vaxxers. If they choose to die, so be it. If covid only killed the stupid... Still an issue in Montana.

But it is nice to have a president who isn't in attack mode 24/7, tweeting insanity at 2 a.m. My anxiety levels slowly subside. I do need to follow the political news less often though. I have to follow the world news though because it affects me even if most Americans choose to remain oblivious."

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