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I have always been told that I am a mystery and a tough one to figure out. |
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I have been having one of those weeks. I have been weepy and stressed out all week. I think yesterday was the worst day that I had in the week. I keep having recurring nightmares the past few months. They always seem to occur around the time PMS sets in for the month, and sometimes I get them on the first or second day of my period. My hormones must be the culprit behind them. Being under tons of stress doesn't help either. Most of my nightmares are full of darkness and completely black. The first nightmare I had was in late February. I was laying in bed, and I saw this dark figure come up behind me, he grabbed me and tried to asphyxiate me. I tried to let out a scream, but nothing came out of my mouth. It was pure silence. I knew it was a dream, and I tried to wake up and force my eyes open, but my brain kept me trapped inside the dream. The second dream I had was the second week of March. In this dream I saw a little toy dog barking at me. I turned the other way, then looked back at the dog, but the dog had turned into this large vicious dog with huge teeth that was barking and snarling at me. I couldn't get out of that dream either. I was about to start crying and screaming, until my guy friend texted me. The chime from my phone broke the dream and I was able to snap out of it. Then I had another dream yesterday morning, that practically paralyzed me. I can't remember what the dream was about, but I felt suffocated. I tried to open my eyes, but my body wouldn't let me. I remember screaming and crying because I was frustrated that I couldn't open my eyes. I was trapped in complete darkness and couldn't escape. ![]() I have been having issues with my cat, Max. He has been improperly defecating outside of the litter box since October. It has gotten worse. I've had him at the vet, and found out that he has two chronic conditions; Inflammatory Bowel Disease and Herpes Viral Infection of the eye. Lovely, huh? ![]() On another note, I have been having issues with an old man downstairs that plays his music too loud at night. I don't mind that he listens to music, I just wish he would keep it low enough that I can fall asleep and not wake up from the noise. My friend who was in town visiting his family stayed over night with me, he heard the noise and told me that I should call the cops on the guy. My guy friend also battles with insomnia like I do, only his is worse than mine. He gave me one of his sleeping pills, and we both fell asleep at the same time. A couple weeks ago, I called the cops on him. Doing that made it stop for a few days, but now he's back at it again. ![]() ![]() I just wish I could break the lease without penalty and move the hell out of here. I am miserable here, and want out. When I renewed my lease, I should have just signed up for a six month term or month to month. ![]() |
Today marked the end of my career as a student. I feel a great sense of accomplishment, and can't believe I made it this far! ![]() ![]() |
Summer term is finally over with! Thank God! I am so wiped out and drained. The entire summer was stressful for me....I switched providers for my telephone, television, and internet to AT&T...that was a living hell for a long time. Almost two months of hell. If our country wouldn't outsource its jobs to third world countries, fuck ups wouldn't happen in the first place. After so much time passed and they couldn't establish a land line for me, I just said 'fuck it' and went with a cell phone. Then my classes were overwhelming because there was so much work to do, more than what I am used to. But today, my summer classes are finally over with! ![]() ![]() |
I am back! ![]() ![]() I also became an aunt again! My sister Jill gave birth to my new nephew on August 24th! His name is Blake and he has red hair. He is a handsome little guy! ![]() But anyway...it's great to be back, and I look forward to writing again! |
I am still alive everyone! ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() |
Winter term is finally over with and I have until the 7th of April off, then it's back to school. I will be graduating this autumn. ![]() ![]() |
I am pissed off over the new healthcare bill. ![]() ![]() |
We went through a bit of a cold snap yesterday. The temperature dropped 30 degrees from what it was on Saturday, and it was shock to the system when I went outside to walk.![]() Molly was over for the weekend and didn't make an attempt to call or visit me. She visited everyone but me and Sheila. I am a little pissed off over it, but oh well. ![]() ![]() I am working on an embroidered baby blanket now. I finished embroidering 2 quilted bibs last week that I will be giving to Jill at her baby shower this June. They match with the embroidered blanket that I gave her for Christmas for her baby that's due this August. I have been doing embroidery for 18 years now. I do it to relax, and it's something for me to do on my down-time. Some of my work is posted in a photo album on facebook if anyone wants to take a look. ![]() ![]() http://www.facebook.com/nicole.d.meeth?ref=profile |
It was such a beautiful day in Michigan today! ![]() ![]() ![]() Finals are next week, and I will be so relieved when they are over. I had a rough go of it for awhile after winter term first started because of a tough teacher, but everything has been resolved. I only have three more terms after this, and then I will be graduating this fall! ![]() On another happy note, my sister Jill has asked me to be her bridesmaid in her wedding next year! She asked me over a month ago, I have just been so busy with my classes that I haven't had time to announce it. ![]() ![]() Oh, I have also lost a total of 84 pounds in the last year and a half since I have been back home. I only have 46 more pounds to shed before I reach my target weight. My goal is to lose those 46 pounds by August of this year. I figure I will lose 20 or more pounds by June and the other 20 by August. We will see. I may have to make some modifications to my diet and exercise routine. I have been doing so well, and I am so proud of myself too! ![]() It's been a rough year for a few reasons, but I won't go into that. I had a good day today and don't want to drag this entry down. I will save my complaining for another day and another entry. ![]() |
When I was getting into my car lastnight, I noticed that someone backed into my car and drove off. This moron left huge dent that covered the entire driver's side. The people that live across the street from my grandparents know that I leave at night and probably figured that I wouldn't notice it right away because it was dark outside. I notice everything right away. Of course this happened while I was out on my two hour walk. ![]() I had a slip and fall accident on some black ice out in the parking lot at my apartment complex a few weeks ago where three people had seen me. Neither one of these people bothered to ask me if I was okay. I guess I will remember that when I witness them falling and nearly busting their asses as well as their skulls. I wound up with two sprained ankles and two sprained wrists. I also ended up with bruising from the shoulders down, and neck pain that radiated up to my head and caused a headache. This just goes to show you that people are cold-hearted and evil. What can I say, people are bastards. ![]() |
Tomorrow. I should have asked for help sooner. ![]() ![]() |
On Christmas Eve, I found out that I am going to be an Aunt again. My sister Jill is expecting her first baby in late July or early August! ![]() ![]() |
![]() A month or so later I spot him in the store again, right behind me. I quickly hurried to the produce section, and next thing I know, he is bounding around the corner on the other side to intercept me. I quickly turned in the other direction and sprinted to the other end of the store to lose him. At that point I was getting really ticked off because he wouldn't leave me alone. I didn't see him again for awhile after that, but then last Monday he comes up to me again to ask me out. He says the same stupid pick up line each time he tries to ask me out. "Excuse me, do I know you?" or he will say, "Excuse me, I have met you before?" He pretends to forget that he has ever met me each time he encounters me. I told him "Yes, you have seen me in here many times." He shook his head and walked away. He's a world class weirdo. Then this past Monday, I hear from him again on MySpace, only from a different account. He introduces himself in the same cliche and corny way he always does and pretends to act as though this is his first time that he ever saw or spoke to me. I am not stupid. I know that he is putting up an act and has discovered a new way to stalk me and probably other women too. I am sure that I am not his only victim. I can't be. Based on how many times he has contacted me on here and at Meijer, he knows damn well who I am. No one is that forgetful or stupid. I replied to his email in a nasty way. Being nice to this guy doesn't do any good. Ignoring him isn't an effective way to deter him. So being a blunt little bitch is the most effective way to get rid of him....maybe. Here is what I wrote: I am getting tired of hearing from you. I know you from another account that you had on here where you have approached me a number of times. We have nothing in common whatsoever. I have no interest in dating you. I told you before that you are too old for me, and not my type. I also know you from a supermarket that I shop at where you have stopped me numerous times and even on one occasion where you actually followed me throughout the store and even followed me in the parking lot to try to get a date from me, where I have also told you that I have no interest in starting anything with you. Every time you amazingly forget that you have asked me out before. I doubt that anyone on this planet is that forgetful as to how often they see someone and not know who they are. You should know this by now. I am tired of being harassed and hounded by you trying to get a date from me. So, PLEASE STOP IT! If that isn't getting my point across, then I suggest you listen to GODSMACK's "Keep Away" track, and I think that you will get the point. If not, and you continue to bother me, I will order a protective order against you. I have already notified the staff at the store about you. Stay away from me. Thank you. I felt that I had no choice to make this guy back off once and for all. He replied back and was a real dick. This is what he said: "Ok, what ever. This is the first time I ever seen you or talked to you. So, since you are being so rood about it, that is ok. I really am not into SKANKY sluts any. you are FAT an Ugly." ROFLMFAO!!!!!!!!!! ![]() All of this after telling me how beautiful I am and all of that. Talk about being a bitter asshole. I prefer men who can actually spell short and simple words anyway. LOL! I printed off the email and the picture that he sent to me. So now if he approaches me in the store again, I will have his email and picture with me. Then he can't try and worm himself out of this not ever meeting me bullshit again. If he comes up to me again in the store, all I have to do is flash that he email that he sent to me and the picture of his ugly mug in front of his face and then he will know that I am on to him. He may try to hurt me, but there will be people around as witnesses. I am not afraid of this bastard. Nothing would please me more than to see him get arrested for harassment and stalking. He sounds like a mental case to me. |
When the Tiger Woods scandal broke the day after Thanksgiving, I felt so disappointed in him. Here he is, a role model for children and young adults, and he goes and makes a dumb ass out of himself by cheating with several women, some of which are porn stars----![]() Being a victim of infidelity myself, I can't have compassion and understanding for Tiger whatsoever. Being cheated on hurts and if you truly love someone, you wouldn't even think twice of cheating on them. Jerry and I had a great relationship in the beginning. I supported him in whatever he wanted to do with his career and did everything I could to make him happy. There was nothing wrong in the relationship and we never had a fight. I never did anything to make him cheat on me. Jerry put me though hell with his sex addiction, not to mention the embarrassment and anger he made me feel. I never cheated on any of the boyfriends that I had since I have been dating as a teenager, and never had the desire to cheat on them. I just don't have it in me to do that to another person. If Elin clobbered him over the head with a golf club, he probably deserved it. When I found out that Jerry was cheating on me, I knocked his head off because he deserved it. I was angry for many reasons, one, the betrayal, and two, the potential exposure to STDs (which thankfully did not happen). If a person cheats once, they will most likely do it again. Infidelity is the most unforgivable offense in a marriage or in any relationship, and something I would never tolerate. I tried to make things work with Jerry (I was never married to him, thankfully), because he swore up and down that he would never do it again, but he did, several times over. Once the vows of loyalty and fidelity are broken, all trust and faith that you ever had in that person is broken and gone forever. I understand that people screw up. Being human isn't a good enough excuse. When a person makes a mistake, it's usually by accident.....cheating is not an accident. You don't accidentally fall into bed with someone other than your spouse or significant other. Cheating is intentional and on purpose, not an accident. Not by far. People who commit acts of infidelity are selfish and self-centered people who don't give a damn about those they hurt. They have complete disregard for their significant other and their children (if they have any children). Those who knowingly sleep with a married man/woman are idiots with low self-esteem who don't care about others feelings. They should be ashamed of themselves. There is nothing that excuses cheating in any case. |
I haven't decided if I am going anywhere for Thanksgiving this year. My entire family gets scattered everywhere on Thanksgiving, and when it comes to single people like me, I get left behind. I don't mind it. I may be slightly bothered by it, but I will find something to occupy my day with. ![]() |
I made the President's List at my college last semester for attaining a 4.0 GPA! ![]() ![]() |
Thanks to Sherri, I have been extended for another month! I love you Sherri! ![]() ![]() |
I hate it when my membership runs out and I am tight on money.......I have 149k in gps, I just need 50k more to be able to afford a 1 month premium upgrade. I won't be getting paid until December 11....so this puts me in a bind. It's really impossible for me to just get a regular upgrade because I have a animated cnote shop and photo albums that I can't get rid of. They have awardicons for one thing, and another thing is that one of the photo albums is of my deceased father. ![]() ![]() |
Why does society have to put a label on everything? Like the term "cougar".......just because an older girl dates a younger guy does not make her a cougar. I have also heard that women over the age of 30 who have never been married are also considered cougars. Well excuse me, I am not going to take the first retard that walks off the street as my husband. I was engaged for two years, but it didn't stick, only at the fault of the guy that I was engaged to, it was his fault, not mine. Who came up with the term "cougar" anyway? Maybe it was some jealous young girl who was pissed off at some older woman for moving in on younger men, or it was some jealous disgruntled older man because a woman of his age preferred younger men. Why don't they have a name for older men that chase after younger women? I have a word for them.....pedophiles. How do they like being labeled? It isn't nice is it? What difference does it make if an older girl dates a younger guy? Why is it anyone's business in the first place? How is it that men can get away with dating younger women without being labeled, but it isn't acceptable for older women to date younger men? That's just plain ridiculous! ![]() |
I will take a meaningless and silly quiz to pass the time! ![]() 1. If you could change your name, what would you like it to be? Alexis 2. Your dream job is? Working for the FBI. 3. What's your profession now? Full time Law Student. 4. If you could live anywhere, where would you live? Still in Michigan, but maybe somewhere quiet near the beach on Lake Michigan or Lake Superior. 5. Do you read more or write more? I think it's even between the two. 6. Santa's coming! What kind of present would you like? A million dollars! ![]() 7. If you could ban one holliday, which one would it be? Dead Presidents' birthdays. They're dead, what's the point? ![]() 8. You're home alone.. what do you do? Watch a movie, play Vampire Wars on Facebook, hang out with a friend or two. 9. You're running late to an interview and you can only find one blue sock and one striped one. What do you wear? A nice professional outfit and a pair of shoes that don't require socks, or wear pantyhose. 10. People tell you not to date a specific person. Do you do it anyway? Yeah. It's my life, I will do whatever I please. ![]() 11. You're in a store and a girl/guy hits on you while you pick out groceries. What's your reaction? If he's beady-eyed and creepy looking, I make a nasty face like I smell something bad such as dog shit, and then I tell him to leave me the hell alone. If he's hot, I would flirt back at him. 12. You take a shower and notice that all your hair fell off! What's your reaction? I usually lose hair each time I shower anyway. But if all of it fell out, I would probably have a nervous breakdown and cry until the day I die. 13. Your neighbors dog just did his business on your front lawn. Your neighbor is hot! You're single!! What do you do? Hmmmmm.........ask him nicely to clean up after his dog, and then ask him if he would like to go out sometime. 14. You're on a plane in a very uncomfortable seat, next to the guy who just peed his pants... What do you do/say? Ewwww, I would ask the flight attendant if there's an empty seat that I could move too. I wouldn't want to sit next to a grown person who isn't potty-trained! ![]() 15. Your in-law's are in town and they want to stay at your place for two weeks. How do you handle it? Tell them that I don't have any room in my house, and that they will have to stay at a nearby hotel. 16. A woman is strugling with her bags and her baby. She asks you to hold the baby for her, then she runs like hell! What do you do? Go to the nearest police station and report the baby as being abandoned. 17. You're on the highway and you have to pee but there are not rest areas/gas stations/etc. Where do you pee? I hate that feeling! I would hold it until I found the next rest area/gas station/restaurant. I am too embarrassed to pee outdoors. 18. Your ex is in town and wants to see you. You're taken! What do you do? Tell him to buzz off! Then go into hiding or skip town. Jerry is the only ex I will not take back. 19. You jump from a diving board and your top falls off, and ends up at the bottom of the pool. You can't dive that deep. How do you act? ![]() ![]() 20. If you could choose your significant other's profession, what would it be? I don't care as long as his profession paid well and is legal. 21. If you could change your looks what would you change? Drop the excess weight, but keep my enormous bra size. ![]() 22. Three guys/girls are sitting at a bar, whispering and smiling a funny smile, while looking at you. How do you feel? Just roll my eyes and mind my own business. Why shoot them a dirty look and give them the satisfaction of pissing me off? ![]() 23. You hit a person with your car. What's the first word that comes out of your mouth? Oh My GOD!!!! 24. You walk into a bookstore. What's the first book you'll go for? Any kind of vampire book or Shakespeare. 25. If you could be any kind of animal, which one would you be? A panther. 26. You're sitting in a Caffe and a man/woman walks from behind you, says "Hi, honey," and kisses you on your cheek. you've never seen the person before. How do you react? I would blush and be too flustered to say anything! ![]() 27. If you could have a completely different life, what would it be like? Be an immortal, youthful millionaire, and live forever. ![]() 28. If your significant other decides you should move away and start fresh, would you do it? Yes. If I love him enough I will go anywhere with him. 29. The house you live in has a history of ghostly presence. Why did you move in? The house was gorgeous and I thought it would be neat to meet a ghost. ![]() 30. Seeing how ridiculous this survey is, why'd you do it? Because my college is having first day difficulties and I can't go to class because of technical issues with the school. .. |