Insomnia

INSOMNIA

Night time is always the worst

As the light fades, making way for the darkness to come creeping in, I do not sleep,

Instead i lay, i lay awake in my sleepless state of consciousness.. just thinking

I think about all the craziest things, i think about my future, I think about my past

There's an old clock that ticks in the corner of our living room, i hear the tick-tock from my sleepless bed,

I hear the sleeping snoring, The sounds of the rustling of my pillow as i switch position hoping to fall into that unconscious state that i so badly miss.

My eyes are shut, telling myself, just control your breathing

I inhale, hold it, ONE.. TWO.. THREE, I exhale, I repeat this continuously

After a while I lose focus, My mind wonders elsewhere until I lose count and have to start over

There's no telling if tonight will be another sleepless night, but its already a minute after four and already i am hearing the life outside begin to wake

I'm fighting a losing battle, I open my eyes and begin to yawn, half in and half out of the sheets i become irritated, Irritated that Insomnia has won again, Insomnia has taken home the trophy five nights in a row.

I move my sheets, and sit up

I'm the only thing stopping me from my desire to sleep, but my mind won't let me

My mind won't give in and rest, my body tells me i should sleep but my mind has other plans.

Tonight has been another sleepless night, As i sit here awake waiting for sunrise

I decide to make the call i've been procrastinating to make for a while, to start cognitive behavioural therapy

Maybe then i can figure out a way of getting a good night sleep, and beat Insomnia once and for all.