Deep

I fell deep in love, long ago.
I’ve done wrong and made mistakes,
But never lost the deep.
So deep, reasons gone.
I’m in too deep.
Fading since it started,
She checked out early.
But I’m too deep to see.
It flashes at my eyes.
I choose not to see.
I’m in too deep

So much time,
Fading more each day.
I’m sure it’s gone
But I’m still in too deep.

Why does she hang on?
I’m in agony not being loved.
She must have pain not loving.
What keeps her?
I know what keeps me.
I’m in too deep.

No real contact,
Almost from the beginning.
I should have faced it right away.
Too scared of what I’d find.
Still scared of what I know.
I’m in too deep.

My heart has drowned.
Her hand reaching down
Could still pull me out.
I still hope for the hand
I know will never come.
I’m in too deep.

What turned her so cold?
She’s warm with others;
Kids, friends, romance books.
Must be me.
But I won’t quit.
I’m in too deep

No hand to hold
No back rub
No kiss
Occasional duty sex / still no kiss
I’m still here
I’m in too deep

I wonder,
How deep love can be?
How long can it last unreturned?
It’s tarnished now, hard for me to show.
Yearning for her hand.
I’m in too deep.