Author has been stripped of her shelter. Now she must lean on those she barely knows. |
My hands are held at my side by the two greatest forces. One is pain and the other heart ache. My cape is on and so is my guard. But then, both are removed. Pain looks at me and says, "We've got you now," They are right. I am no one now. They have captured me. The one I gave my heart to is standing before me. He doesn't know what to do. He's scared for me. I've been hurt too much. But what he doesn't know, is that they have a secret weapon. They have my past. All that I was and will always be. I've hurt the one way too much. And I know what I have to do. I hang my head low as they tear off my mask. They take off the outerflesh I wear... And reveal all the scars. Then they take away my guard and replace it with other mortals like me. The ones who have been ripped of pride. Have fled from pain, but still toil with heart ache. But then add a glimpse of shame and guilt. For we let it get this way. I lay down at last at the feet of these other mortals. they are my only hope. They can help me conquer all this. But the one has seen me and all there is to me. The scars, the pain, the shame, the helplessness. Yes, I guess he's saw these before. But why do I feel so naked? Why do I feel so alone? When I dwell in the surroundings of others like me? But I've noticed.... The chains are gone. I can breathe and it is hard to. I can love but it will take time. I can live, but I don't remember how. I'm scared. I'm alone when I step out of this haven. Who do I turn to? Is the one there? he said he Luved me. That he wants to know what is going on. That he'll NEVER leave. Is all this true the one? Please don't leave me. I've been stripped of everything and starting new. All I have is God....And hopefully you..... |