Speaking with Death

Speaking with death.

To look into your eyes sends a chill down my spine
Frozen with fear my eyes fill with tears but still I cant look away
The memory of the life I once knew fade with each passing second
My mind is blank with terror but still words come from deep inside me
Hate fills my voice as I question your right to destroy every thing I know
You smile at me though your sweet eyes still gazing into mine
I curse you for doing this to me while knowing that I love it
You love me and I cannot believe it nore can I undertsand it
I say the most horrible things to you clinging to the hate and fear that once ruled my life
Still you tell me that you love me and it is like speaking with death
As my life of solitude crumbles around me I find life like I never knew could be
I saw love as it should be seen as delivered to me by my sweet pagan Angel
Then I saw that I spoke with death about love life and happieness
For the first time the fact that I had always wanted to embrace death now made sense
For I found that inodred to love first the shell I lived in had to die
Now I thank you