Addresses the stigma around expressing your emotions publically |
They say be you. But, I can never "be me." When I was younger, I felt emotions: Anger, fear, sadness, and happiness. I wasn't afraid to show how I felt. That all changed in an instant. The world goes from a seemingly happy place-- To a terrible soul-crushing area Where everyone fights to see who the winner is. The winner is whoever can't feel anything. The winner is the best at feeling numb no matter the circumstance. I remember one time that I was told act sad. I couldn't even react. I was already numb. What's the difference? I can't even tell feelings apart. I have trained myself to feel nothing. I would rather feel numb than to show people who I actually am. Who I actually am is a terrible sight to see. I began thinking and I came up with-- Since when are emotions a bad feeling? What changed in our lives that turned us into not-humans? What happened to everyone? Life happened. Life isn't wonderful or glorious. They say the only way to change is to be you. But I don't believe I could ever show that No one wants to see that horrid person I hide away No one should ever have to see that. Emotions are horrible. Feeling numb is better than breaking down. They say you get stronger after you break I see no current positives. The lowest of the low should not be seen by anyone. I say you must hide everything Until, someone cares enough to stay... |