Sleepless Nights

Sleepless nights I lay awake letting my mind wander to those dark, dreary dreadful places of my mind that I somewhat despise.
I subconsciously slip into this saddening pool of submissive solitary thoughts that slowly pick away at my brain.
It's when those negative "What if's" start to outweigh those positive "Think about's".
Makes you want to question everything you've previously done.
This is the time for self judgment, and how hard you can be on yourself.
It's a bittersweet feeling of something I can't explain... I often feel myself growing more and more beat within each interpretation, so I start to realize that within each fight there's no way of winning.