Betrayal

    This Betrayal. I have been betrayed, and now I have betrayed. Both are an awful feeling. In a moment of poor judgement, I have ruined something beautiful. And now I have to live with it. So many things could have gone differently. I could have made the right decision. I could have stopped myself. But I didn't. And now I have to live with this regret.
    When I was betrayed, I was at least told about it. And so I am going to do the same. When I was told, I didn't feel much. I continued to not feel much. I never felt much from it at all. I was disappointed. But I was empty. It didn't set with me, it was distant and easily forgotten. But now that I have betrayed, it can not be forgotten. It is not distant. I am no longer empty, because I am filled with regret and what-ifs.
    Thank you for reading this. Writing these two short paragraphs made me feel better. And that is all I wanted to do with this. I would like to end this with a quote from a musician whose music always helps me, "All I have are the thoughts in my head and this moment I am in" ~Todd Snider.  I hope you have a better day than I am.